My Confusion and I

We all have friends, or at least I would like to think we do. In many cases we don't have the option to pick the people around us and we simply have to befriend the ones most similar to us or the ones we can easier get along with. But the older we get, the more options we have. Partly because we meet more people but we also learn how to say goodbye to the people that aren't worth having in our lives. This might not be because we don't care, it could simply be because they don't care. But in my life so far I've learnt a few things, there are ways to tell that you've actually picked great friends and I thought I should share them with you. Obviously these things are only my own opinion and you might disagree with me completely but hey ho, let's go. 1. They have seen you at your worst but that hasn't scared them away. In many cases it's even the opposite, it has brought you closer. This might mean they've seen you cry after a break up or you havi...

After living with depression for many years and lately experiencing a difficult time I have noticed that there are different type of people you meet. 1. Some people simply can't understand what it means by being depressed. They tend to think of it as someone just having a bad day when in fact someone who is depressed is very likely to feel like they have a bad life. It's completely understandable that it is hard to grasp the concept of a mental illness that causes so much problem that it might even cause physical pain. I guess it's like everything in life; if you haven't experienced it you won't know how it feels like. 2. Some people are good at adjusting to the person with depression and understand the concept even though they won't know how it actually feels like. These people are the ones that will listen to you when you need to talk but won't treat you any differently or be worried what they do will trigger your depression. They know that when you have...

Today is the International Women's day, a day when we are suppose to celebrate women and equality. Or fight for equality at least. So waking up today and checking my Facebook I noticed how everyone suddenly have become feminists. Don't get me wrong, it's a good thing that people are feminists and want equality but it confuses me how some people only seem to care once a year. Personally, I rarely call myself a feminist even though I believe in equality so this day doesn't make me feel the need to show the world that I support equality. Another issue I have with this day is that if we want equality, why isn't this the International Equality day? By making this the women's day we are deciding to separate ourselves from men and therefore preventing equality even more. As I've mentioned previously on my blog we need to stop believing we should have special treatment for the world to actually be able to become equal. International Women's day is very differ...

Dear NHS, 8 months ago I went to my GP and asked for a referral to a psychologist. At that point I had just recovered from depression and I felt ready to get support from someone else, something I was scared of before. As any GP would do he sent a referral straight away which led to a phone assessment only a week later. This gave me hope. Finally medical care that takes me serious. Since I was in a stable position in my life at that time I explained to you that I was currently not in a bad state but I wanted to prevent it from happening again. In my opinion that was a logical way of moving forward since I was more likely to be responsive to the treatment when I felt good than if I was at rock bottom. Due to my case not being as urgent as others I had an understanding of that I would have to wait in line as everyone else. You told me it would take 2-3 months. After 4 months I hadn't heard anything from you and I could feel the depression and negative thoughts sneaking up on me. I...

As my regular readers know, I have depression. This has been going on for many years and I've had my ups and downs. The last 3-4 months or so have been bad, really bad but I am finally feeling that I'm emotionally stable to some extent. I know that this has been mainly because I've been working on myself to achieve the things I wanted to achieve in life. I've reevaluated what's important in life and I've learnt how to deal with certain things that hurt me before. But this is not a post about how I've dealt with depression, no this is a post to say thank you to the people that have been there for me. I would say thank you for helping me to get out of it but that would be a lie. Depression is unfortunately not anything someone else can treat and as selfish as it sounds, I am the only one who has got myself out. However, I can thank you for being supportive, understanding and patient. The last 4 months made me antisocial, negative and sometimes very difficult...

I have been blessed with a somewhat normal life. My parents aren't famous, my family doesn't have some sort of gigantic bank account and I haven't achieved any kind of fame or success as many people would call it. This has made it possible for me to grow up and live my life without having everything handed to me. I've also had the opportunity to learn that sometimes life isn't always about fame as some people seem to think. This was something I recently stumbled upon when my mother was trying to arrange an event for an organisation that gives scholarships to girls and help out at the Jewish old age home. During this they had asked Beppe (a Swedish presenter for a kids TV program) to perform. Not only is he jewish and this is a jewish organisation but he is also related to one of the people organising the event. These two factors together should be incentive enough to anyone to show that he cares about charity work and helping out. Not only to please his family and c...

After finishing Lord of The Rings and the Hobbit my attitude towards the books is easy to describe; I'm in love with the books. As much as it is a struggle to get through Lord of The Rings I enjoyed every word of it and the Hobbit only made me like J.R.R Tolkien even more. One thing that made me love the books was Sméagol (Gollum). The character added a lot of entertainment but also food for thought in so many ways. We are constantly thrown between Sméagol and Gollum and the inner fight he has with himself of what he is. The reason for me feeling so connected to Sméagol is probably due to the fact that I believe everyone can relate to the feelings he is going through, especially in the society now-a-days where we often let our urge of having something can lead to us changing our behavior completely. Sméagol is one of the few characters in the book that is not purely good or bad, he switches between the two, in extreme ways. As strange as it might sound, he is just an exaggerated ...