My Confusion and I

So there's been a while since my last post because there's been a few difficult months that I'm sure I one day will be ready to share but until then... As my mid-twenties crises I joined a book club. The first book we read was The Circle by Dave Eggers. I will not explain the story line in detail but basically a girl starts working for a company that is called the Circle which is in a way controlling social media. As you might imagine this book raises a lot of questions about what is public and what isn't. Before you continue reading you should know that this post will have lots of spoilers, not because that will actually change much when you read it since it is a very predictable book. Let's start of with the way the book is written; the language was extremely poor. I enjoy reading books where you can almost see the people and places in front of you but in this book there wasn't much to go on. It also bothered me that there was no chapters. I know that is a ...

I have changed my mind about what I wanted to do in life many many times. First I wanted to be a teacher, mostly because I wanted to inspire people but also because I loved learning (something that hasn't changed). Then I wanted to be a flutist, which made me spend 3 years in high school practicing for hours everyday, then I wanted to be an actor, a career I gave up quite quickly and in a desperate need to find something that I thought was achievable I wanted to study engineering or something similar because science did interest me. Well, to be honest that phase changed quickly when I discovered that being a producer and organising things was something I really enjoyed so I decided that I wanted to be a TV-producer, a dream that I was determined to achieve and therefore applied to film and tv production at university and even got in. But as you might have realised, even before I started university I had a mere thought of becoming a doctor ( a dream I haven't really buried yet ...

I have recently on this blog mentioned how I am suffering from depression. By living with a mental illness, bad days is a re-occurring thing in my life and sometimes it can be for no reason at all apart from the fact that my brain simply won't produce enough serotonin for me to be able to feel the happiness that other people feel. This challenge in my life has led to me having to find ways to distract my brain from thinking all those negative thoughts that come and go constantly. I've tried mindfulness, therapy, breathing exercises and the list goes on and on. Even though some of these things have helped at times there is only one thing that has actually been able to calm me down recently; coding. I started learning code a few months ago but I immediately grew to love it. I am not always able to solve the issues but there is so much information out there that I will always be able to get around it somehow. So why do coding help me to relax? Well to be honest I think it's  ...

With the development of smartphones, tablets etc. our lives have become more and more based behind a screen. We communicate with friends and family behind the screen, do our shopping online, read books from a Kindle and so on. It's as we have become a society that is scared of social encounters where we actually have to look people in their eyes. In many people's opinion this is a negative development due to us not being able to interact with each other as we did in the "good old days". However, this can be seen as a positive thing at times. As we learn more about the difference between people we have come to learn that there are introverts and extroverts. If you haven't heard of these terms, in short, introverts get energized by being alone whilst extroverts thrive in social situations. This means that at times, introverts might not want to leave their room. Not because they don't want to have friends but simply because it is emotionally draining for them. S...

I recently experienced something that many people would be uncomfortable with, things about me got exposed online by another person. It wasn't anything particularly bad and there was actually no proof it was about me except for the fact that I knew it was. This made me uncomfortable for several reasons, one was I wasn't expecting to see it and it was a bit of a surprise since I didn't believe it was that person's right to share that with the world but to be honest, it wasn't something I couldn't cope with. After all, no one could actually trace it back to me. The thing that struck me harder was the things people post online without realising that it will have consequences. I am not going to write what was posted or what other people have posted on the same space because that is not up to me to tell the world but I feel the need to inform my readers and hopefully people around the world what internet does to the private. One thing people seem to forget when the...