My Confusion and I

It's been a while. It's been way too long but there honestly hasn't been enough time to process the last 6 months for me to be able to sit down and put my feelings into words. I've now lived in Israel for almost half a year and I am starting 2018 with a stomach bug but with so much happiness in my life. I am not going to lie, the last 6 months have been challenging and frustrating at times, but it is all worth it in the end or so I would hope at least. When you move to a new country there are a millions of things to adjust to. For me the hardest adjustment was probably accepting the fact that this is where I am settling down. No more moving around trying to find myself because let's face it, there's only so many places a person can live until it gets exhausting to feel like you have several different homes but yet none of those places feel permanent. Please G-D, Israel will be the place where home actually feels like home. So what inspired me to get back to my ...

This was suppose to be my 101st blog post which explains the title but things came in between. However, these 4(?) years of blogging hasn't particularly made me an expert in blogging so I don't feel like I am the rightful person to give advice. What I can do though is share what blogging means to me and how it has changed my life. I used to have a lot of opinions that I didn't share with people. These opinions kept burning inside of me and I became angry and frustrated with the world. This was one of the reasons for why I started writing a blog; I felt the need to express my opinions and my friends were getting sick of hearing it. When having an online platform where I could write whatever I liked I suddenly became less afraid of expressing my opinions and I actually stand for what I thought. It was relieving to not be afraid of speaking up for once. Having a blog means a lot to me, it's a place where I can say whatever I want (thank g-d for freedom of speech) but it ...

Today is my birthday. I have now lived on this planet for 24 years which has given me a lot of knowledge about life but far from enough. However, I would want to share with you what I've learnt so far. 1. Age doesn't define who you are. Some people grow up quicker than others and just because you're 20 years younger than someone doesn't mean you know less. 2. It's important to admit you're wrong when you are. No one is perfect and the quicker you realise that the happier you'll be because it will encourage you to grow. 3. It is never to late to change your game plan. During a game, things change constantly. This means that you sometimes have to change the way you are playing. There is no point sticking to the original plan if that's not working. You need to adjust and adapt to the situation. 4. Don't give up on people too easily. Some people simply go through rough patches in life, I do at least. This doesn't mean you should give up on th...

A bit more than a year ago I was wearing a cape and a strange hat whilst celebrating the end of university. That was a day filled with excitement, pride and happiness. 3 years of hard work had finally come to an end. However, these feelings wear off quickly because the day after you wake up with the truth; you're unemployed. Due to the unsuccessful job hunt I decided to expand my horizon and do a Masters too, because more education should be able to get me a job no? Well it kind of did since I am not unemployed but the Masters made me realise many things about my previous degree. First of all I came to understand that it doesn't matter how well you do in University if you don't actually go out that and get the experience. Everyone can pass an exam but not everyone can do something that affects other people. I've always had the ambition of making the world a better place and the only way to do this is to actually make the first move and attempt to influence others. If I...

We all have friends, or at least I would like to think we do. In many cases we don't have the option to pick the people around us and we simply have to befriend the ones most similar to us or the ones we can easier get along with. But the older we get, the more options we have. Partly because we meet more people but we also learn how to say goodbye to the people that aren't worth having in our lives. This might not be because we don't care, it could simply be because they don't care. But in my life so far I've learnt a few things, there are ways to tell that you've actually picked great friends and I thought I should share them with you. Obviously these things are only my own opinion and you might disagree with me completely but hey ho, let's go. 1. They have seen you at your worst but that hasn't scared them away. In many cases it's even the opposite, it has brought you closer. This might mean they've seen you cry after a break up or you havi...

Tomorrow I am turning 23 years old. This means that I should be one year older and therefore wiser. We learn new things from before we are born and these things are lessons that we take with us as we grow older. Since I've lived 22 years I am going to share 22 things I've learnt in my life. Most of them are probably things I've learnt this year though. 1. Never say never - I said I would never do a Masters and here I am, doing a Master. 2. You don't always have to talk to friends to be good friends. I talk to some of my best friends rarely due to being busy. That doesn't make them bad friends, it just means that when we talk we can go back to normal without it being awkward. 3. Happiness isn't a given thing just because you have everything you need. 4. It's ok to be depressed. It is nothing to be ashamed of and it's not your fault. It's simply an inbalance in your brain. 5. Some people aren't worth to have in your life. It doesn't matte...

Here we are the first day of the new year. Our Facebook news feed is full with statuses saying Happy New Year, New Year is trending on Twitter and everyone seems to be analysing the previous year and decide what they are going to do differently this year to make their lives even better. Usually I promise myself to do all these things such as exercising more, eating healthier, studying more and spend less money and believe it or not, I always end up breaking the promises after about a week. So this year I've questioned myself, why do I even bother to promise myself all these things when I know I will break them sooner or later and just end up disappointing myself?  The answer is clear, there is no good reason for me to do this so I decided not to promise myself any of these things and instead actually focus on what I already have. So for 2014 my New Year's Resolutions are Promise myself not to promise myself to do anything. Yes, this makes no sense at all in one way but w...