My Confusion and I

I am born in the generation where people don't know what lives were without colour TV, a computer in every home and internet. Some of us might remember when you couldn't be on the phone at the same time as you were online but to be honest, the only reason why I know about it is because my older siblings have told me about it. This has created a society for my generation where we communicate with people all around the world and often with people we don't even know. I know many of us like to think that we are friends with everyone on facebook but quite frankly, we don't. There are a lot of people we haven't talked to since primary school or people we just have on facebook because we enjoy stalking them. This creates a problem we often don't think about, what we put online is not just for us and our friends. It is for everyone we have on facebook and often other people. We also easily forget how the things we put online can be saved and spread by others and soon ...

When we are kids most of us looked up to someone. Many of us looked up to our camp counselor or a boy in the 5th grade whilst being in 1st. This often develops to crushes on these people, sweet innocent crushes, that we know will never lead to anything but we still wish for it. For most of us these crushes disappears quickly and we move on to adore the newest boy band but some people hold on to their crush and believe it is real and that they actually have a chance. I have friends that keep on writing letters to their celebrity crush until they actually answer and friends that know everything about their crush. But why do we actually feel these things for people we've never met? That question is difficult to answer since everyone feels differently. Personally, I think that we all like the chase, whether it is someone we know or someone famous. It's the thrill to achieve something and be liked by someone that so many other people want. This is why I believe that we'll never...

For you people who don't understand the title, this post might make you disagree with me or make you think I'm trying to defend Israel but that is not my aim. The title means good job IDF and is used quite often to show the respect to the soldiers and your sympathy. At the moment there is a war outbreaking in Israel and Hamas declared war today. For most people this is just like any other day, Israel and Hamas are fighting, so what? But other people will get involved and comment on the situation. Some people will say that Israel is killing innocent people and some people will say that Israel is just defending themselves. I am usually one of those that try to say that Israel has the right to defend themselves which I still stand for. However, I want to say that I will never try to defend innocent people dying since that is unfortunate whether it is in Israel or anywhere else but is the terrible result of war. The situation in Israel is not easy. Many people suffer on both side...

Channel 4 has for 2 weeks now showed  a tv-program called Jewish mum of the year. This tv-program is suppose to be a competition between jewish mothers competing in being the best mum by planning a Bar Mitzva party or match making and so on. For non-jewish people this might seem like a good program to get an insight of the jewish world and how the typical jewish mum behaves. It is an opportunity to see if they behave differently than non-jewish mums and what makes them so special. However, for a jew, this program is a cringe-fest. Most of us have a jewish mum that definitely would qualify to be the typical "yiddishe mame" but at least my mum is very different from all of the mothers competing to be the best one. Watching it for 2 weeks now has made me realise how stereotypical the women are on the show and no wonder some people find jews strange. We are portrayed as naive, spoiled, stupid and, in lack of a better word, annoying. I know some of my friends might agree with thi...

Last week it was the Jewish New Year. The difference between the Jewish New Year and the normal is that the Jewish holiday is the beginning of a week of repentence and asking for forgiveness whilst the normal new year is about celebration and fireworks. We do celebrate but there are many things leading up to Yom Kippur, the day of judgement. We will get judged by G-d and therefore need to repent our sins we've done this year. For many people this might seem like a strange idea, how can we repent our sins for a whole year and not only that, we repent for everyones sins and not just our own. To be honest I didn't really understand the whole point when I was younger but the last couple of years it has brought another meaning to me. We all make mistakes in our lives and no one is perfect. As much as we want to believe we've never hurt anyone or even ourselves we do it all the time. Just the way you might look and someone can hurt that person and we might not even be aware of ...

I was born believing in G-d. It wasn't my choice to be Jewish and I don't think I would have been if my parents weren't. Being brought up with a religion in your home changes the way you look at things, it did for me at least. From the beginning I was part of a community, I had special traditions I did everyday or at least every week and a history that wasn't necessarly mine but my people's. It's not easy to explain to a non-jew what that means since most other religions are based on the only fact of believing whilst Judaism has a lot of different things connected to it. Jews are a people not a religion. Where ever I go I can always find people that have things in common with me, it makes it easier for me to go to different places and explore the world. Jews are considered to be a wandering people and for me it has been a good thing. I don't have one home, I have three and if I wanted to move somewhere else I know I can find people to get along with just bec...

I have now been a volunteer in ambulances in Israel for about 6 months actively. During this time I've seen many drunk people, old people with high blood pressure, people with stomach ache and people who I really have no idea why they called the ambulance at all but I've also seen really ill people. Some people with problems breathing and would probably stop breathing if we didn't give them oxygen, some people without a pulse, and therefore the need of CPR, and car accidents. Luckily the CPR I've done was successful and I can live my life knowing I've saved someone else's life but I've also seen people die. The first time you see someone die you don't really know how to react. My reaction was to first calm the family down because that was all I can do. However, the things going on in my mind was "oh my god, what just happend?" Did I do something wrong? What did I miss?. I couldn't get it of my mind even though we did everything we could. I...