My Confusion and I

A little less than 3 years ago a girl in her late teens packed her bags and went on a plane to Liverpool. With 2 full suitcases, her mum by her side and expectations about the future she was ready to start the last journey of her education: She was going to University. That girl was me. Now I am sitting here in a city that I now call home with my last assignments handed in, my last exams written and no lectures to go to. For many people that might seem like a relief or even a blessing sent from heaven. I see it as a pit stop in my life and I can't wait to refuel and keep on going with the race because at the moment I am just in stagnation without reason to be stuck. I finished university two weeks ago but it didn't hit me until now. I was too busy getting caught up with the issues of my life that I kind of completely forgot the fact that after 15 years of education I could finally stand up and say proudly: I've finished my degree. Yes, I haven't got my results yet but...

Sometimes a book can put your life into perspective. The Faults in our stars is one of those books. For those who haven't read it, the book is about a girl who has terminal cancer. It follows her dilemmas and problems being a teenager with more problems than just growing up. As in every book about growing up, she meets   boy that of course creates even more problems for her and she needs to deal with all these things at the same time as she deals with the fact that she is dying. When I was reading this book I was going through some difficult things in my life and I was expecting to get some inspiration from the book. It's not one of those books where everything ends up fine (won't spoil the end more than that) but it's one of those books that makes you realise that sometimes things aren't as bad as you think they are. John Green has managed to describe the feelings the characters have in a way that gives the reader an opportunity to both laugh and cry together wit...

I don't write about personal things, that has been my rule on this blog but I feel like this is something I can share with you guys. It's quite personal but it needs to be said. A few months ago I became friends with a person. This person quickly became an important part of my day and we talked a lot. When I say a lot I mean hours everyday. Because of this, this person became a person I cared about and felt comfortable with so I opened up to this person and let this person be someone that I trusted and felt that I could tell things I couldn't tell other people. During these three months we developed a close friendship that I really appreciated but I also became worried about losing this friend. This person sometimes needed space and I am a person that find it difficult to give people space which sometimes made this situation challenging. I felt pushy, needy and annoying. But I tried to work on myself to learn to deal with peoples' differences. This person became the ...

In life we constantly have to commit to things. We need to commit to our school, our friends, a job, a partner and most of all, our own beliefs. When saying it out loud it might sound daunting and challenging but if you think about it, we all do it without even noticing it. It's like it goes without saying, in life we commit to different things and that is what makes our lives be more than just many days lived separately. However, I have noticed something with people around me. We seem to struggle to commit to each other. Not in the way that we stab each other in the back and stop caring for each other but in the way that there are always other things that come in between. Now-a-days it is so easy to make plans with someone and then the same day send a text saying that you are busy and doing this without feeling any guilt at all. It seems like we have lost all the feeling for starting something and following it through until the end. This can be applied to everything from a univer...