My Confusion and I

A while ago I go into a discussion with an old jewish friend who now doesn't associate with Jews at all. We started talking about whether God exists or not and why I believe in something that you have to prove but still haven't been able to prove . She strongly believed that God is something we made up a few thousand years ago and believing that praying  is going to help us is completely unnecessary. It is basically just us talking to ourselves and thinking it is going to make life better. As the conversation moved on the obvious argument came up, if there is a God why are there evil people in the world? To be honest I don't have a good answer to any of these questions so I usually end up answering the question with another question. Why should we not believe in God. There is nothing to disprove that God exists and even if it were so, why can't you not believe in something that makes you feel stronger and gives a some kind of hope. It doesn't hurt anyone or aff

I was born and raised as a member of the Jewish Community of Stockholm. As a child I went to the jewish school, took part in many activities and was a frequent synagogue goer. When I reached that age when I had to think about how I wanted my Bat Mitzvah my choice was easy, of course I would do the same thing as my grandfather, my dad and my 3 siblings did, I would do something in the Great Synagogue in Stockholm. However, I considered one of the orthodox synagogues, Adat Jeshurun, my synagogue and I barely went in to the Great Synagogue. The choice was easy for one single reason, tradition. As a grandchild of holocaust survivors my family doesn't have many traditions and it would feel strange not stick to one of the few ones we actually have. This meant me compromising as a 12 year old girl and tell them that I didn't want to have the organ playing or have the microphones. My Bat Mitzvah was one of the last times I set my foot in that synagogue and I know my children won't

We watch a lot of TV in my student house which means that it has become the place where we all gather in the evenings, mostly watching reruns of Come dine with me or Big bang theory but sometimes we also feel like spicing our TV habit up a bit by watching these surprising programs that Channel 4 put on. Whilst Made in Chelsea is strictly forbidden on our TV, programs like Embarrassing bodies and Rudetube are often being watched. Due to this weird range of TV-programs we decided that we were going to try out the new program Sexbox. For you people that haven't seen it the concept is easy, a couple goes into a box and has sex. During this time some so-called Sexperts talk and then the couple comes and discuss the lovemaking. It took me a while to understand why anyone would come up with this idea and waste money on this but during the program they were constantly trying to explain that people don't talk about sex even though it is very natural and that people should dare to talk a