My Confusion and I

Trust. A five letter word that for many people is the most important word in their lives. Do you trust me? You need to trust yourself. I trust you. The moments in our lives where this is said are the moments when we change. It is when we put our lives in someone else’s hands and give them the possibility to do whatever they want with it. They are supposed to guard it with their life because that is why we trust them but sometimes they won’t. Sometimes those five letters means nothing more than a simple combination of Latin symbols put together. It slips of your tongue with ease and when taking it away there is no regret because it didn’t mean anything to begin with. It takes time to build up trust but it only takes a mere second to lose it all. Once it’s gone it is never to be found. It’s like a Mentos in a diet coke bottle. First you think it’s there and it’s going to stay, then it explodes and you can’t seem to collect it back. And then lastly it’s gone never to be seen again.

I've previously written a long post about being depressed and I don't want to repeat myself. However, depression is a subject that I think needs to be mentioned more often. After Robin Williams died everyone seemed to care about the importance of talking about depression but as I feared, that has all gone and with that gone we tend to forget that a smile on someone's face doesn't mean that person is happy. I know many people that are suffering from depression and I know many people that have been hiding it until I admitted my depression to them. I'm not saying that we always need to tell everyone but there shouldn't be an issue if you tell your friends that you have some form of problem that you might need support and help for. Personally my depression has been an issue I've always been scared of dealing with. I've denied medication, I've denied help from a psychologist and what's worse of all, I haven't been willing to help myself. I am fu