My Confusion and I

As a volunteer in Magen David Adom (the ambulance service in Israel) I've got an opportunity to experience many different things that changed my view on life. I've seen people throw up, cry, scream and worst of all, die. This hasn't happened often but it is usually difficult to deal with but you learn that it is a part of life and we should be happy that we also get a chance to save people and I always try to put a smile on the patients face because there is nothing better than to see someone smile even though you know that person is in pain. I didn't choose to volunteer in MDA because I wanted to save lives, it was a part of my program and to be honest I didn't really have any choice but once I started I realised that saving someones life is an indescribable feeling. Most people that start volunteering want the rush of going with the sirens on and coming to a call with someone severely injured. I can't deny that I didn't want that in the beginning. I sat t